I am so confused.

We found out last night that we did not get the church in CA and we found out also this week we did not get the chuch here. That one I had a really hard time with. I was told he had the job by one of the elders wives then bammmy nothing. I don't understand why the Lord would bring 3 churches in view for us than close all 3 doors knowing that Mike needs employment. I'm still really struggling this whole thing. I don't get any of it. I am really really mad too at the whole situation. It is hard to try and hide that fact from the kids. I don't want them to doubt God but what do I say to their questions when I am doubting Him. I know this is really a downer post but this is where I am at right now. I promise next one will be better.